This post is coming out of a place of feeling torn between thinking about going to be with Will "I am Graham"Stewart, (in theory, at least because whether or not the Spirit is willing This flesh does not feel like going anywhere, thank you, as perfectly tempting it is.) It is the most tempting thing in the Universe. I can imagine doing more things with him than with anyone else, but that doesn't mean I want to actually do them.. Just thinking about it is good enough for me. I have a great imagination and your abundant imagination and creative approach nourish my Spirit like no other. You have given my Creative Muse a face and a charming Scottish accent. Right now that's more than enough. 

I just think it's hilarious because when I am with Graham (YOU) or think about him I feel like the most beautiful Disney Princess in the Universe, Living in the "Happy Ever After";  the Valley of Love and Delight. If all I think about is YOU my Beloved, my body fills with a Holy Sweetness which has a salubrious effect on my health as you can well imagine. Thinking about you stimulates my thymus (and other) glands. You rub me the right way, baby! ) 

So I am in conflict with myself as to why I am not flying away to this Harlequin Romance-y kind of situation. Mainly because I am not romantic. I'm a pragmatist, I have things I want to do, projects I want to see to completion. As an eternal being, I can't see any reason why I can't have my cake and eat it too.  I can love you eternally and still bring to fruition the many seeds I have planted in my lifetime? I have not even begun to curate my own Bildungsroman/Multimedia Presentation and many of my experiments have only begun to show results. 

I have Saturn in Virgo. 

Anyway, beloved, I figure this being Eternal Love, there is plenty of time for these things to sort themselves out, right? 

You are stuck with me, I am afraid! But at a distance which respects your need for space, of course. You do what you need to do, I will be right here for you. I am thinking that maybe I am your grandma, the Loch swimmer? You never know, eh? 

A CHILD OF ABOUT FIVE CARRYING A HUGE SHOPPING BAG FILLED WITH GROCERIES

This Symbol shows having to “Carry” heavy loads, to shoulder responsibilities, do chores and jobs and help others, sometimes because there’s no one else who can or will do it. Often, the “Child” gets these responsibilities because they are the one who others know is going to take it seriously, completing the task, taking care of details. You may feel that you have been burdened with responsibilities beyond normal expectations and possibly beyond your capability. Despite being keen and enthusiastic, you must be careful not to try to take on too much, or do too much, or too quickly. Like a child, you need to play, be creative and rest. Growing up too fast. Weighed down with responsibilities. Taking on things above and beyond. Being the one who pays. Acting the grownup. Doing everything. Broad shoulders.

The Caution: Overloading the innocent and the inexperienced without thought of the consequences. Taking on too much. Not allowing for fun and carefree activities. Never being "off-duty". Joint, back and shoulder problems. Growing up too fast. Having a serious attitude. Lack of childhood. Dropping the bundle. Carrying the family's responsibilities.

Keywords: Being the one everyone counts on to do the job. Feeling weighed down. Having to carry the "bag". Lifting heavy weights and bearing the consequences. Taking on things above and beyond what one should. Acting the grownup. Maturing quickly. Looking after paperwork. Running errands. Providing food and sustenance for everyone.