The story so far: Not knowing exactly what I was doing in this realme, I wandered, experimenting, trying tis and that. My overview of my life war that of shining a strobe or spotlight hither and yon trying to figure out where the heck I was and what was going on. The predominant feeling-tone of my life has been bewilderment.
Who I was I never doubted because I am always here, in this consciousness, attached to another forever. The world has stood in for that Other .
 In lieu of being able to understand my being my hope is that the Other will look upon me with understanding and compassion.
I'm in a growth spurt, or time of disequilibrium, like the Terrible Two's, or Puberty. But I've been like that off and on for years? Maybe that;ds part of the pattern?
When I was a young child, I had this recurring dream for years and years; I was a pure energy Being, traveling somehow through the ether. Everything would be smooth and blissful until, suddenly, Chaos! Static!! Jaggedness!!
It was a lot like a funhouse ride, and I soon learned to just relax and go with it and it would be fine.